Hol(e)y Innocent here

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

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Dammit lah. Why the hell do things have to be like this.i really can't bring myself to do it.but I have no more choice right now.shuning is the only way left.fuck just feel like crying. All I want is just you but why the fuck must things be so damn difficult. The probability of losing you is so damn high now especially with him being so damn close to you. Never thought this day would ever come. I guess this is a lesson to be learned, the hard way.

Yous Truly
@ 8:39 PM|

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Dammit so jealous. Sighh fuck lah. People say never to have regrets. But what if that mistake is too big for you to not regret? Dammit my past mistakes are haunting me right now.

Yous Truly
@ 7:56 PM|

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Hmm heard a lot of things from Hani today. Guess if you really don't want. It anymore then...I don't have anything to say. Don't worry darling if you're so sick of seeing my face then this is probably the last year you'll see me everyday. After this year I guess we'll be going our separate paths? If that makes you happy then there's nothing I'll say anymore...my dreams just shattered.

Yous Truly
@ 6:01 PM|

Sunday, February 26, 2012

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Our 21st is the last i'll do anything for her again. The rest is up to her. I've had enough emotional torment for the past 14 months.

Yous Truly
@ 12:59 PM|

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Kay I don't know what the fuck is wrong with her anymore.i guess shunting is the only way now.if it doesn't do her any good then maybe it'll just do me some good?as much as I want her to get as hurt as me and feel what I'm feeling, I really hope she won't have to face sth as bad as I'm currently facing with her.all this shit.

Yous Truly
@ 12:46 PM|

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

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We're so messed up.

Yous Truly
@ 6:26 PM|

Saturday, February 18, 2012

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Sigh.Hope there's still some hope in us.

Yous Truly
@ 11:10 PM|

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It's amazing how so much effort can become undone by just one mistake...

Yous Truly
@ 9:37 PM|

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I really think I'm making another mistake again...

Yous Truly
@ 10:56 AM|

Friday, February 17, 2012

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If it makes you happy what else can I do?

Yous Truly
@ 10:19 PM|

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Sigh.Screwed up.again.fuck this shit seriously.dammit.i don't know what you want.i don't know what I want.im so confused right now

Yous Truly
@ 7:48 PM|

Monday, February 13, 2012

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Flaws.So much of them.

Yous Truly
@ 12:02 AM|

Thursday, February 9, 2012

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Sigh.She's just trying to make me stop loving her?Guess my mum was right.It hurts but I should just shun her for a while.Guess distance makes the heart fonder?Eventhough if it's only one-sided.

Yous Truly
@ 10:24 PM|

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I miss you.I miss you so much.There's really no other way for me to express this.I really wish you'd love me as much as before.I really wish you'd be more possessive of me and actually get jealous seeing me with other girls.Youre giving me too much space. I know I screwed up but you I've been trying to make it right for a long time. And I hope you'll forgive me.I love you.

Yous Truly
@ 6:23 PM|

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

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Okay.today was.meh.Told her its a break.nothing to say,really. I just want to be with her. I wanna have a family with her. Have kids with her. Grow old together. I know,farfetched dreams. But that's what I hope for. I hope she'll love me like before again.or better,more than she'll ever do.I hope things will work out fine and we'll come out of this as one and our love for each other stronger than ever before.

Yous Truly
@ 6:20 PM|

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

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Ughh.What have I gotten myself into.why out of every year a string of bullshit can happen,why this year?maybe I guess it's because it's because I'm starting a new phase of my life?i hope I can get through it,broken or not.

Yous Truly
@ 10:41 PM|

Saturday, February 4, 2012

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I really want you back.

Yous Truly
@ 7:00 PM|

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It's official.worst two years of my life so far.I'm really just in a state of confusion right now.Hurt,very hurt indeed.I don't know what else to do. I've been crying regularly everyday and that's really out of my ordinary character.it hurts likeshit seeing the very person you love treating you like crap in front of your friends.not to mention her chasing another guy.it all fucking hurts.really.So many regrets right now.maybe if I didn't listen to her and rush things everything would be okay between us now and i could still be with her in the future.but life's too short for regrets right?sigh.

Yous Truly
@ 10:34 AM|

Thursday, February 2, 2012

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Hi.im back.had been a few Topsy-turvy years for me.The best times I ever had in my life and next,the worst part of my life so far.I guess out of this I just wanna say.I hope you'll come back for me.I miss you so much.maybe you just see me as an annoyance to you now but really I just miss you.i miss how we were.I miss all the times.You may have forgotten it,but it remains fresh in mind.I love you do damn much you know it? I can't help the frustration any longer. Maybe it's just karma for me?? Maybe it was all my fault?maybe distance was really better? Maybe I shouldn't have listened to you back then?theyre so many questions in my head right now.

Yous Truly
@ 6:11 PM|